"You have all the tender sweetness of a seasick crocodile."
You have some nerve, Mark Baker. Wow.
So, remember how last Saturday was a super awful day for me? Well, turns out it was a pretty bad one for Alycia too. And what got to top it off? Mark Baker telling her that she and a couple other girls on team needed to lose some weight. Yep. No tact. To say that Mark Baker is a complete asshole (pardon my french) would be an extreme understatement. First of all, Alycia is gorgeous. In every way you could ever imagine. So him saying that to her is completely outrageous. But recall how he said a couple other girls needed to do the same? He was so kind as to list them off for her. Myself and one other were included. Um, yeah. I'm ready to punch him in the face right now for several reason, and this one is getting to be the last straw. If he EVER DARES to say that to my face, I'm gonna quit. Right there. On the spot. It is hard enough these days for a girl to be comfortable with her body as it is. She doesn't need jerks that are SUPPOSED to be their LEADERS and COACHES making that even more challenging. The fact is, Alycia and I weigh about the same as most of the other girls on team. What's the problem then? According to Mark, we "look heavier". This is most likely due to the fact that they're a good 4 inches taller than us. Apparently, he'd like Alycia to return to the weight she was at when she was a 14-year-old ballerina by our first show, if at all possible. Yeah so...that's in a good week and a half. SCREW THAT! You know, I wish he'd come and say that I need to lose weight to my face. I dare him. I'd love to tell him EXACTLY what I think about him. I don't care if he's my teacher and thus should have my respect. If he's not going to give it, the hell if I'm going to give it back! He doesn't get to treat us any way he wants or say anything he wants and then just expect complete respect for it. If he thinks we're too fat to be on team, why in the hell did he put us on it in the first place? Because he thought we'd be able to lose enough weight to look decent enough for his beloved tour team? Well, I have news for you Mark. Our bodies don't work that way. Especially mine. Sure, I could drink nothing but lemonade for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and MAYBE get in the general area that you'd like, but there's no way I'd EVER do that for you. First, because I don't want to be a part of an extracurricular activity that sucks my time and energy enough as it is ESPECIALLY if it's going to make me feel even worse about myself than I'm already prone to. And second, because I'm an athlete before a dancer. I've played softball and other sports since I was 4, so my body is built after that lifestyle, not the "tall, skinny dancer" one. So please Mark, tell me to my face what you so willingly said to Alycia. You'll be down a dancer in half a second. Sure, I'd miss ballroom. I'd miss the social aspect and all the friends I've made there, but if I'm going to feel pressured to slim down every time you have us do a new lift...it just wouldn't be worth it anymore. Hence, if you want to keep every member of the team ON the team, keep your rude, jerkish comments to yourself. I don't want to hear it from you. I don't need your help to feel awful about myself. Wow, what a professional you are.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Gravity.
"Set me free. Leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am, and I stand so tall. I'm just the way I'm supposed to be...
You're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go,
but the one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down."
Can I seriously never get rid of my past? Wasn't it enough that he wrote an awful (in the sense of what it's about...not its musicality) song about me and played it for not only my ward, but the entire school AND a crowd at the basketball game? Can't him being married to the girl (who I actually quite like...she's beautiful and nice. I can see why he married her.) that he was merely "taking a break" from while dating me let him out of my world and my thoughts? Apparently not. Yep, you guessed it...Dowse is not only in my Biology class, but my Biology lab as well. I had already accepted the fact that I'd just have to see him every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for an hour...but that was in a room of over 150 students. It wouldn't be hard to avoid him there. The lab is much smaller and more social, I guess you could say. With only about 15 people walking around and working together in a room for two hours, it's suddenly a lot harder to stay out of his way. Gotta give the boy props though...when he obviously can't pretend he didn't see me or literally run into me, he acts like we've been nothing but friends for a whole year. No one just looking on would be able to guess everything we went through just a few months ago. Of course, whenever possible, he does like to pretend I don't exist. Which is completely fine by me. The less I have to communicate with him, the better. I don't like feeling so angry and bitter...but something about public humiliation just brings that out in me I suppose. Well, I guess I should be fair. This class isn't all THAT bad. I love Biology, so that's gonna help my enjoyment. And there's also a pretty rad kid named Tyler Hack that's in there too. He was in the 5th ward with me last year, but I don't think I ever actually talked to him. Pretty sure that will change though.
So work was ok...but I just have a quick question. Is today "Ex-Boyfriends that left Ariel with any emotional damage must somehow remind her that they still exist" Day? Because if it is...someone forgot to tell me. A little bit of warning would have been nice. Oops. I bet there's some wonderment as to what I'm talking about right now. Answer: Travis Jones. Yep, the same Travis Jones that I dated for all of...oh, 3 weeks, yet STUPIDLY became relatively attached to prior to being dumped out of the blue for reasons supposedly having nothing to do with me. He just texted me while I was working ToGo "Hey girl! What have you been up to? How was your first week of school?" Um...seriously? You don't talk to me for MONTHS and now you want to know how school is going? Well, the classes I'm taking that I signed up for WITH YOU are pretty ok I guess. I wouldn't have taken them at all if I thought I'd have to be doing so by myself. So thanks there. Ok, obviously I didn't say that to him, but I really wanted to. The sad thing is...I still kinda dig him. After everything that happened, I still have this small part of me that is holding out hope that maybe he'll have to move back to Cedar because Cali is just not what he expected and then he'll look me up. Yeah, I know it's stupid, but hey...I'm a girl. My brain likes to run in Chick Flick mode frequently. Anyway, we're currently still talking and it's pretty friendly. I'm actually really surprised that the conversation has lasted this long though. I guess he's just really bored on his drive home.
Dream: Mmmm...to marry a guy that loves me the way I am and doesn't expect me to change my personality to fit HIS needs.
Care: Well, despite how much craziness I've had to deal with because of these boys, I still miss them and strangely still care about their well-being. I wish I was better friends with both of them...like I used to be, but minus the romantic stuff.
Risk: I'd have to say that actually responding to Trav was a risk. Mostly because I'd really prefer to leave that case closed. Yep. Yep I would.
Expect: Ha ha...I'm actually kinda expecting that Dowse's presence in my Bio lab will keep me focused on what I'm doing. Because heaven knows I don't want to be caught zoning out in his general direction. How ridiculously awkward.
Here I am, and I stand so tall. I'm just the way I'm supposed to be...
You're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go,
but the one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down."
Can I seriously never get rid of my past? Wasn't it enough that he wrote an awful (in the sense of what it's about...not its musicality) song about me and played it for not only my ward, but the entire school AND a crowd at the basketball game? Can't him being married to the girl (who I actually quite like...she's beautiful and nice. I can see why he married her.) that he was merely "taking a break" from while dating me let him out of my world and my thoughts? Apparently not. Yep, you guessed it...Dowse is not only in my Biology class, but my Biology lab as well. I had already accepted the fact that I'd just have to see him every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for an hour...but that was in a room of over 150 students. It wouldn't be hard to avoid him there. The lab is much smaller and more social, I guess you could say. With only about 15 people walking around and working together in a room for two hours, it's suddenly a lot harder to stay out of his way. Gotta give the boy props though...when he obviously can't pretend he didn't see me or literally run into me, he acts like we've been nothing but friends for a whole year. No one just looking on would be able to guess everything we went through just a few months ago. Of course, whenever possible, he does like to pretend I don't exist. Which is completely fine by me. The less I have to communicate with him, the better. I don't like feeling so angry and bitter...but something about public humiliation just brings that out in me I suppose. Well, I guess I should be fair. This class isn't all THAT bad. I love Biology, so that's gonna help my enjoyment. And there's also a pretty rad kid named Tyler Hack that's in there too. He was in the 5th ward with me last year, but I don't think I ever actually talked to him. Pretty sure that will change though.
So work was ok...but I just have a quick question. Is today "Ex-Boyfriends that left Ariel with any emotional damage must somehow remind her that they still exist" Day? Because if it is...someone forgot to tell me. A little bit of warning would have been nice. Oops. I bet there's some wonderment as to what I'm talking about right now. Answer: Travis Jones. Yep, the same Travis Jones that I dated for all of...oh, 3 weeks, yet STUPIDLY became relatively attached to prior to being dumped out of the blue for reasons supposedly having nothing to do with me. He just texted me while I was working ToGo "Hey girl! What have you been up to? How was your first week of school?" Um...seriously? You don't talk to me for MONTHS and now you want to know how school is going? Well, the classes I'm taking that I signed up for WITH YOU are pretty ok I guess. I wouldn't have taken them at all if I thought I'd have to be doing so by myself. So thanks there. Ok, obviously I didn't say that to him, but I really wanted to. The sad thing is...I still kinda dig him. After everything that happened, I still have this small part of me that is holding out hope that maybe he'll have to move back to Cedar because Cali is just not what he expected and then he'll look me up. Yeah, I know it's stupid, but hey...I'm a girl. My brain likes to run in Chick Flick mode frequently. Anyway, we're currently still talking and it's pretty friendly. I'm actually really surprised that the conversation has lasted this long though. I guess he's just really bored on his drive home.
Dream: Mmmm...to marry a guy that loves me the way I am and doesn't expect me to change my personality to fit HIS needs.
Care: Well, despite how much craziness I've had to deal with because of these boys, I still miss them and strangely still care about their well-being. I wish I was better friends with both of them...like I used to be, but minus the romantic stuff.
Risk: I'd have to say that actually responding to Trav was a risk. Mostly because I'd really prefer to leave that case closed. Yep. Yep I would.
Expect: Ha ha...I'm actually kinda expecting that Dowse's presence in my Bio lab will keep me focused on what I'm doing. Because heaven knows I don't want to be caught zoning out in his general direction. How ridiculously awkward.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Popular.
"I'm a party star. I'm popular! I've got my own car. I'm popular!"
Woot woot! Club fair! What a blasty. I had double table duty all night though. That was interesting mostly because the fair was on the track at the football field and I had to go between the Eluzion colorguard table at the East end of the stadium and the Ballroom table at the west end. But it worked out pretty well! I'd stay at the guard table for like 15 min and spin rifle and sabre and try to impress people with meh skills and things. And it worked a little bit because we got 3 people to sign up! PARTY! I'm so stoked to do a winter show!!! I don't know if we'll be up to par for it this year, but for sure next year! I have so many show ideas running through my brain right now it's ridiculous. Anyway, the BDC table was pretty fun too just because all my other ballroom buddies were over there being crazy and fun and things of that nature. You know, because that's how we roll. Anyway, I hung out with Chels and Alycia for a while, frequently hitting up the North end of the stadium for random refreshments...although all I actually wanted was water. I got to see so many of my friends walking around though, which I loved because I haven't seen too many of them since I've moved back. Which is both bogus and sad. But it was really fun to get to spin for them because no one here really knows what colorguard is and they had no clue I could do it. Ok, and I kind of was enjoying showing off. What? It's hard not to when Jen-Jen and Bri-Bri drilled awesomeness into my brain for my entire Senior year! Oh goodness...I seriously miss them! Hmmm...well, I think I'm off to go hang out. Apparently my buddy busser bud Kyle from work wants to do some chillaxin' at mi casa. Man, I have bazillions of friends in Cedar it seems like!
Dream: That Eluzion will grow and grow like the BDC did...and then I will have started something AMAZING here at SUU!
Care: Wow, I'm feeling so greatful to JennyLynn and Brianna. I've never felt so strong and beautiful as I did when they were teaching me. Thank you both so much for giving me confidence and strength! I never knew how much I would need it later in my life. Love you girls!
Risk: Showing off my skills in public...after having zero practice on any of my equipment for...oh, I dunno...6 months...
Expect: To get some more girls signed up for Eluzion so we can have a relatively larger show (hopefully for this winter!)
Woot woot! Club fair! What a blasty. I had double table duty all night though. That was interesting mostly because the fair was on the track at the football field and I had to go between the Eluzion colorguard table at the East end of the stadium and the Ballroom table at the west end. But it worked out pretty well! I'd stay at the guard table for like 15 min and spin rifle and sabre and try to impress people with meh skills and things. And it worked a little bit because we got 3 people to sign up! PARTY! I'm so stoked to do a winter show!!! I don't know if we'll be up to par for it this year, but for sure next year! I have so many show ideas running through my brain right now it's ridiculous. Anyway, the BDC table was pretty fun too just because all my other ballroom buddies were over there being crazy and fun and things of that nature. You know, because that's how we roll. Anyway, I hung out with Chels and Alycia for a while, frequently hitting up the North end of the stadium for random refreshments...although all I actually wanted was water. I got to see so many of my friends walking around though, which I loved because I haven't seen too many of them since I've moved back. Which is both bogus and sad. But it was really fun to get to spin for them because no one here really knows what colorguard is and they had no clue I could do it. Ok, and I kind of was enjoying showing off. What? It's hard not to when Jen-Jen and Bri-Bri drilled awesomeness into my brain for my entire Senior year! Oh goodness...I seriously miss them! Hmmm...well, I think I'm off to go hang out. Apparently my buddy busser bud Kyle from work wants to do some chillaxin' at mi casa. Man, I have bazillions of friends in Cedar it seems like!
Dream: That Eluzion will grow and grow like the BDC did...and then I will have started something AMAZING here at SUU!
Care: Wow, I'm feeling so greatful to JennyLynn and Brianna. I've never felt so strong and beautiful as I did when they were teaching me. Thank you both so much for giving me confidence and strength! I never knew how much I would need it later in my life. Love you girls!
Risk: Showing off my skills in public...after having zero practice on any of my equipment for...oh, I dunno...6 months...
Expect: To get some more girls signed up for Eluzion so we can have a relatively larger show (hopefully for this winter!)
You Really Got Me Now....
"You got me so I don't know what I'm doing now!!"
Alright...my expectations were met. Pretty sure that's safe to say. I'm super tired and really need to get to bed, but I just seriously need to document this. Ha ha. The Reader's Digest Version is that Bryce's buddies are pretty awesome. I met a lot of them, but the only ones I actually talked to for a while were Tanner, Keith, and Charles. I ended up talking to Charles for most of the night though. He's pretty good looking and really sweet. And he already makes fun of me like we've been friends for weeks rather than hours. Which is one of my favorite things that a person I just met could do. Definetly yes. Anyway...everyone was basically ready to go home after a couple games of pool and basketball, but I was thinking that a movie sounded bueno, and Charles agreed. Pretty much everyone said they were too tired to watch a movie so it was just me and Chuck Norris watching Ocean's Eleven on my awesome big screen. And afterwards...well, ok, I'm so ridiculous. I now owe all my roomies Daquiris/Pina Coladas. Indeed. I suck at life.
Dream: OOPS! This one is totally going in the vault. Yep.
Care: Apparently I didn't care too much...wow. Wow wow wow.
Risk: I think this one is pretty obvious.
Expect: To get majorly teased with random comments from the roomies. It'll happen. Trust me.
Alright...my expectations were met. Pretty sure that's safe to say. I'm super tired and really need to get to bed, but I just seriously need to document this. Ha ha. The Reader's Digest Version is that Bryce's buddies are pretty awesome. I met a lot of them, but the only ones I actually talked to for a while were Tanner, Keith, and Charles. I ended up talking to Charles for most of the night though. He's pretty good looking and really sweet. And he already makes fun of me like we've been friends for weeks rather than hours. Which is one of my favorite things that a person I just met could do. Definetly yes. Anyway...everyone was basically ready to go home after a couple games of pool and basketball, but I was thinking that a movie sounded bueno, and Charles agreed. Pretty much everyone said they were too tired to watch a movie so it was just me and Chuck Norris watching Ocean's Eleven on my awesome big screen. And afterwards...well, ok, I'm so ridiculous. I now owe all my roomies Daquiris/Pina Coladas. Indeed. I suck at life.
Dream: OOPS! This one is totally going in the vault. Yep.
Care: Apparently I didn't care too much...wow. Wow wow wow.
Risk: I think this one is pretty obvious.
Expect: To get majorly teased with random comments from the roomies. It'll happen. Trust me.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
GIRLS!
"And I can always make them smile from White Castle to the Nile!"
So…school was basically the same as it was on Monday…nothing super special to report about it. But when everyone got home today, we all headed out to Chili’s to get some virgin Strawberry Daquiris and Pina Coladas due to our intense kissing skills from last night. Oh, I guess that’s kinda confusing, eh? Well, one of the rules of our awesome house here on 600 West is that when any roommate kisses a NEW boy for the FIRST time, that roommate owes the other roommates a virgin Daquiri or Colada. Since all of us totally made out with random people, we all just bought our own. Oh, and since Shelynne didn’t streak with us and also didn’t make out with random people, we decided that she had to buy her own anyway as initiation to our house. Yep. Totally fair. :) Anyway, while at Chili’s, we got to sit next to Charlie Busch and Kristen Hunter!! Man I miss those kids! Spencer was our server too…I swear I ALWAYS end up in his section whenever I eat there with my friends. Without fail. It’s kinda weird but I’m completely ok with that. So after we parted from my place of business, we all crammed into lil baby Jorge, and I just prayed that no cops saw us because I SERIOUSLY can’t get pulled over again. Not even kidding. So I dropped Megan off at Jesse Maher’s house for his crazy superhero birthday party (HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MR. JESSE MAHER!!!) that I totally intended on going to…but I had to drop off Cindy at home so she could do her homework and then I was supposed to take the rest of my roomies to the comedian, Jeff Dye, in the ballroom. Yeah, I just can’t resist comedy when it all comes down to it. So I went in with them. He was actually super funny! And super ridiculously good looking. Goodness. So after his awesomeness came to an end, Shelynne and I took a trip to the library to check email and things while Becks, Emily, and Erin walked on home. Shelynne then received a phone call from her fionce of a fionce saying that he and his buddies were at our house already. So…oops! Totally walked in not knowing who was on the other side of the kitchen! Hence, this is where I leave until after I hang with these few (and one of them is rather fine) fellows.
Dream: To one day be as awesome at stand-up comedy as Jeff Dye. I dig making people laugh.
Care: Wow...I love my friends. I would do anything to keep them happy and smiling because I know they'd do the same for me.
Risk: Oops...wearing relatively short shorts in public! Ha ha.
Expect: Tonight should be interesting...
So…school was basically the same as it was on Monday…nothing super special to report about it. But when everyone got home today, we all headed out to Chili’s to get some virgin Strawberry Daquiris and Pina Coladas due to our intense kissing skills from last night. Oh, I guess that’s kinda confusing, eh? Well, one of the rules of our awesome house here on 600 West is that when any roommate kisses a NEW boy for the FIRST time, that roommate owes the other roommates a virgin Daquiri or Colada. Since all of us totally made out with random people, we all just bought our own. Oh, and since Shelynne didn’t streak with us and also didn’t make out with random people, we decided that she had to buy her own anyway as initiation to our house. Yep. Totally fair. :) Anyway, while at Chili’s, we got to sit next to Charlie Busch and Kristen Hunter!! Man I miss those kids! Spencer was our server too…I swear I ALWAYS end up in his section whenever I eat there with my friends. Without fail. It’s kinda weird but I’m completely ok with that. So after we parted from my place of business, we all crammed into lil baby Jorge, and I just prayed that no cops saw us because I SERIOUSLY can’t get pulled over again. Not even kidding. So I dropped Megan off at Jesse Maher’s house for his crazy superhero birthday party (HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MR. JESSE MAHER!!!) that I totally intended on going to…but I had to drop off Cindy at home so she could do her homework and then I was supposed to take the rest of my roomies to the comedian, Jeff Dye, in the ballroom. Yeah, I just can’t resist comedy when it all comes down to it. So I went in with them. He was actually super funny! And super ridiculously good looking. Goodness. So after his awesomeness came to an end, Shelynne and I took a trip to the library to check email and things while Becks, Emily, and Erin walked on home. Shelynne then received a phone call from her fionce of a fionce saying that he and his buddies were at our house already. So…oops! Totally walked in not knowing who was on the other side of the kitchen! Hence, this is where I leave until after I hang with these few (and one of them is rather fine) fellows.
Dream: To one day be as awesome at stand-up comedy as Jeff Dye. I dig making people laugh.
Care: Wow...I love my friends. I would do anything to keep them happy and smiling because I know they'd do the same for me.
Risk: Oops...wearing relatively short shorts in public! Ha ha.
Expect: Tonight should be interesting...
Kiss?
“I just want a little extra time in your…..kiss!”
"OH MY GOSH! I can’t believe we all just did that!"
And now I’m gonna Tarentino that…takin’ it back, takin’ it back. Meet Your Religious Leader was on the MP Quad today…which was awesome because I got to meet my Bishop, see my old Bishop, and get free food while hanging out with all my old ballroom buddies!! Man it’s great to see them! Funny story…Bishop Reed totally tried to hook me up with this kid (I think his name is Skyler…but his name tag said Angela, so that’s honestly the only name I can legitly remember for him right now) that he knows pretty well. He seemed cute enough but holy did I blush when Bishop suggested that right in front of the both of us! Ha ha…gotta love those awkward moments. There was supposed to be a dance in the parking lot after the Religious Leader dealy (yes, I was hoping to see Randall there), but Erin, Becks, and I were a bit too tired to actually dance and we didn’t see anyone out on the floor that we knew. And yes, we could see everyone. There were only like 30 people there. Hence, we walked home…which is when the fun started! I called Jace to see if he wanted to come over and he told me he’d be over after he and his buds hit the dance. I advised him to just skip it because it was pretty dead when I left, but he insisted on checking it out first. While I waited for him to call me back, I got to sit and listen to Shelynne and Bryce’s cute falling in love with each other story! Goodness, I love it! But holy crazy…the things we girls deal with for boys we like! We’re nuts! Seriously. Oh, so anyway…shortly after Jace called, he arrived at my casa, where we brainstormed things to do. And what did we come up with? Spin the Bottle of course. Why? Because it’s on Cindy’s Bucket List! Hence, Jace called some of his friends to come over and join us, and Becka let me call her friend Alan over too. He totally thought I was kidding when I said we were gonna play Spin the Bottle…but I was completely serious. We all sat in a circle (boy, girl, boy, girl), and Shelynne served as judge, jury, and executioner since she’s very much on the taken side of the relationship spectrum. So basically our rules were that 1. Players of the same gender could not kiss each other…because seriously, ick. I love my roomies, but not THAT much. 2. If anyone spun and landed on Shelynne, she had the authority to just say whatever name she wanted, and it was from then on as though you spun that person. 3. Every time a specific couple rolled each other, their kisses had to become more “serious”. For example, the first time I rolled Boy A, I would have to kiss him on the forehead. The second time, I would have to kiss him on the cheek. Perhaps the third time, Boy A spun me, we would then have to kiss on the lips. Next would be kissing with tongue for 5 seconds. After that, the same thing for 10 seconds. And what came after that? Breaking in the make-out couch in the garage, of course. Wow…what a game! Ha ha. The counting would vary between SUPER SLOW to relatively quick seconds. Alan got a kick out of counting to about 7 and then starting back at 3, just to mess with everyone. What was interesting was that Jace stated at the beginning of the game that “everyone should place any personal feelings aside and not get offended or anything because it’s JUST A GAME.” Even with that stated, I didn’t realize how hard it was going to be for me to watch Jace kiss my roommates. Wow. I didn’t think I really cared that much about it. Apparently I do…seeing as how I was dealing with some intense jealousy. But what SUPER confused me was when he just grabbed me and kissed me when the game was over. I know how I feel about him…but I have no clue what he’s thinking about me. Interesting…
Ha ha! I just got a text from him…apparently Becka and I were the overall favorites to kiss. Next was Megan and Cindy, followed by Emily and Erin. Well, that’s flattering…ha ha. "OH MY GOSH! I can’t believe we just did that!" This house is out of control! But in the most awesome way possible. :)
Dream: That maybe one of these days I’ll finally choose a guy to date that WON’T be just using me. Man, that would be nice.
Care: About Jace. Way more than I imagined. Awkward...
Risk: Oops…totally swapped spit with a roomful of people. Most of which I just met.
Expect: To figure out what in the world is going on with my brain. Wow. Crazy.
"OH MY GOSH! I can’t believe we all just did that!"
And now I’m gonna Tarentino that…takin’ it back, takin’ it back. Meet Your Religious Leader was on the MP Quad today…which was awesome because I got to meet my Bishop, see my old Bishop, and get free food while hanging out with all my old ballroom buddies!! Man it’s great to see them! Funny story…Bishop Reed totally tried to hook me up with this kid (I think his name is Skyler…but his name tag said Angela, so that’s honestly the only name I can legitly remember for him right now) that he knows pretty well. He seemed cute enough but holy did I blush when Bishop suggested that right in front of the both of us! Ha ha…gotta love those awkward moments. There was supposed to be a dance in the parking lot after the Religious Leader dealy (yes, I was hoping to see Randall there), but Erin, Becks, and I were a bit too tired to actually dance and we didn’t see anyone out on the floor that we knew. And yes, we could see everyone. There were only like 30 people there. Hence, we walked home…which is when the fun started! I called Jace to see if he wanted to come over and he told me he’d be over after he and his buds hit the dance. I advised him to just skip it because it was pretty dead when I left, but he insisted on checking it out first. While I waited for him to call me back, I got to sit and listen to Shelynne and Bryce’s cute falling in love with each other story! Goodness, I love it! But holy crazy…the things we girls deal with for boys we like! We’re nuts! Seriously. Oh, so anyway…shortly after Jace called, he arrived at my casa, where we brainstormed things to do. And what did we come up with? Spin the Bottle of course. Why? Because it’s on Cindy’s Bucket List! Hence, Jace called some of his friends to come over and join us, and Becka let me call her friend Alan over too. He totally thought I was kidding when I said we were gonna play Spin the Bottle…but I was completely serious. We all sat in a circle (boy, girl, boy, girl), and Shelynne served as judge, jury, and executioner since she’s very much on the taken side of the relationship spectrum. So basically our rules were that 1. Players of the same gender could not kiss each other…because seriously, ick. I love my roomies, but not THAT much. 2. If anyone spun and landed on Shelynne, she had the authority to just say whatever name she wanted, and it was from then on as though you spun that person. 3. Every time a specific couple rolled each other, their kisses had to become more “serious”. For example, the first time I rolled Boy A, I would have to kiss him on the forehead. The second time, I would have to kiss him on the cheek. Perhaps the third time, Boy A spun me, we would then have to kiss on the lips. Next would be kissing with tongue for 5 seconds. After that, the same thing for 10 seconds. And what came after that? Breaking in the make-out couch in the garage, of course. Wow…what a game! Ha ha. The counting would vary between SUPER SLOW to relatively quick seconds. Alan got a kick out of counting to about 7 and then starting back at 3, just to mess with everyone. What was interesting was that Jace stated at the beginning of the game that “everyone should place any personal feelings aside and not get offended or anything because it’s JUST A GAME.” Even with that stated, I didn’t realize how hard it was going to be for me to watch Jace kiss my roommates. Wow. I didn’t think I really cared that much about it. Apparently I do…seeing as how I was dealing with some intense jealousy. But what SUPER confused me was when he just grabbed me and kissed me when the game was over. I know how I feel about him…but I have no clue what he’s thinking about me. Interesting…
Ha ha! I just got a text from him…apparently Becka and I were the overall favorites to kiss. Next was Megan and Cindy, followed by Emily and Erin. Well, that’s flattering…ha ha. "OH MY GOSH! I can’t believe we just did that!" This house is out of control! But in the most awesome way possible. :)
Dream: That maybe one of these days I’ll finally choose a guy to date that WON’T be just using me. Man, that would be nice.
Care: About Jace. Way more than I imagined. Awkward...
Risk: Oops…totally swapped spit with a roomful of people. Most of which I just met.
Expect: To figure out what in the world is going on with my brain. Wow. Crazy.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This!
“Who am I to disagree? Everybody’s looking for something.”
Heck yes for Modern Dance! I’m going to love waking up to that class every Tuesday and Thursday at 10 AM! My professor is from Hong Kong I think and he totally treats dance like a religion, which is kinda weird but super cool at the same time. We do quite a few yoga moves, and the main objective for him is to teach us how to be in tune with our bodies and to figure out how to use our own tools as best we can, not to all look exactly alike. It’s so relaxing having so much freedom with my movement and to be able to just clear my mind and dance. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt that at peace before…maybe this will be an awesome stress reliever and escape! And I’m going to give myself some kudos for allowing an hour of free time between dance and the rest of my classes today, because that was quite the workout…and showering felt super good! It totally refreshed me for my Parables of Jesus class in the Institute at Noon. Man, that class is going to rock! I’m so excited to try and apply the teachings of Jesus in the olden days to my life today. And I’m hoping that having Institute almost every day will help me keep up with my testimony building. Not going to lie…my testimony was definetly tried and tested this summer. Some days its all I have to hold on to and other days it’s all I can do to hold on to it. We’ll see how this works out. Spanish was at 1 PM again today…although we switched rooms so we could have a projector and a sound system. All we’re doing this week is review…but that’s probably a bueno idea since I kinda forgot some of the conjugations and such! Now…my Laws of Evidence class…that’s gonna be intense. There’s a lot of reading that has to be done before you come to class and apparently I’m going to be quizzed on it frequently. But the part that freaks me out a bit is the actual hour and a half of class. It’s completely discussion-oriented. No lecture. Just thinking on your feet and defending your thought processes and beliefs. Wow, I really hope I know what I’m talking about…otherwise I’m going to sound like a total idiot!
Wow…can I just say how proud I am of myself right now? I got 4 of my textbooks and a couple of SUU Merch items for $165!!! That’s SOOO cheap compared to normal! Wow. I rock. Hands down. The only thing that sucks is that my Bio Lecture Outline and lab book aren’t in yet. I probably won’t get those till next week. Gayness right there.
Dream: I know it’s lame, but yet again…that I’ll run into Randall. I can’t help but hope that he digs me…but I have no clue if I’ll ever even find out.
Care: Wow…Laws of Evidence today really gave me a deeper rooting in respect. It’s hard for people to do their jobs and make everyone happy while not looking like a monster all at once. I’m gonna think twice before I ever judge a Defense Attorney.
Risk: I really just let go and moved from my heart instead of my head in dance this morning. I was totally vulnerable, which I usually hate, but today I was ok with it.
Expect: That my Biology stuff will get here fast enough for me to actually not be super far behind once they arrive.
Heck yes for Modern Dance! I’m going to love waking up to that class every Tuesday and Thursday at 10 AM! My professor is from Hong Kong I think and he totally treats dance like a religion, which is kinda weird but super cool at the same time. We do quite a few yoga moves, and the main objective for him is to teach us how to be in tune with our bodies and to figure out how to use our own tools as best we can, not to all look exactly alike. It’s so relaxing having so much freedom with my movement and to be able to just clear my mind and dance. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt that at peace before…maybe this will be an awesome stress reliever and escape! And I’m going to give myself some kudos for allowing an hour of free time between dance and the rest of my classes today, because that was quite the workout…and showering felt super good! It totally refreshed me for my Parables of Jesus class in the Institute at Noon. Man, that class is going to rock! I’m so excited to try and apply the teachings of Jesus in the olden days to my life today. And I’m hoping that having Institute almost every day will help me keep up with my testimony building. Not going to lie…my testimony was definetly tried and tested this summer. Some days its all I have to hold on to and other days it’s all I can do to hold on to it. We’ll see how this works out. Spanish was at 1 PM again today…although we switched rooms so we could have a projector and a sound system. All we’re doing this week is review…but that’s probably a bueno idea since I kinda forgot some of the conjugations and such! Now…my Laws of Evidence class…that’s gonna be intense. There’s a lot of reading that has to be done before you come to class and apparently I’m going to be quizzed on it frequently. But the part that freaks me out a bit is the actual hour and a half of class. It’s completely discussion-oriented. No lecture. Just thinking on your feet and defending your thought processes and beliefs. Wow, I really hope I know what I’m talking about…otherwise I’m going to sound like a total idiot!
Wow…can I just say how proud I am of myself right now? I got 4 of my textbooks and a couple of SUU Merch items for $165!!! That’s SOOO cheap compared to normal! Wow. I rock. Hands down. The only thing that sucks is that my Bio Lecture Outline and lab book aren’t in yet. I probably won’t get those till next week. Gayness right there.
Dream: I know it’s lame, but yet again…that I’ll run into Randall. I can’t help but hope that he digs me…but I have no clue if I’ll ever even find out.
Care: Wow…Laws of Evidence today really gave me a deeper rooting in respect. It’s hard for people to do their jobs and make everyone happy while not looking like a monster all at once. I’m gonna think twice before I ever judge a Defense Attorney.
Risk: I really just let go and moved from my heart instead of my head in dance this morning. I was totally vulnerable, which I usually hate, but today I was ok with it.
Expect: That my Biology stuff will get here fast enough for me to actually not be super far behind once they arrive.
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